{WHW}: Back to School/Work edition

So, today will be my third day back at work, but today I'm leaving my Ella bear at home with MG--his first full day being the sole caretaker! It should be interesting!!

Going back to work has been an adjustment for sure especially making sure that I have everything for each day for Ella at daycare. The first day I had about 400 bags of different things and ended up leaving without her milk for the day. #mombrain  Luckily MG was still home and drove to where I was and dropped it off so that I didn't have to turn around and drive back and forth again.

It's SO hard to leave her--I know she's in great hands with my friend/babysitter. Her two sons love Ella so much and I get pictures throughout the day. But the start of the school year always brings so much stress and anxiety, and coupled with breastfeeding/pumping, daycare drops offs and pickups, and trying to sleep (plus getting the cold that Ella got this weekend)....it's just a lot. 

Lots of tears have been shed the past couple of days, and I'm sure more are coming too. I know in my heart that this feeling isn't forever (it better not be!!), but for right now, my feeling is overwhelmed!

So for now, I'm just trying to figure out what my "new normal" is going to be. All while prepping to get a school year off and rolling by Monday!
Distract me and share what's hap-"pinning" with you all!


Back to Life....

"....back to reality"

Today I'm heading back to work, tearfully.
It's been 16 weeks at home with my girl and I'm not sure what the day will be like leaving her in someone else's hands for the day (thankfully it's someone who we know, and trust).

In addition to all of that, our little peanut came down with a cold on Saturday night and was up just about every hour that night with sniffles, coughs and some super sad cries.

She teetered on having a fever during the day Sunday but thankfully didn't quite reach what's considered a fever for her age.

Needless to say, yesterday was filled with exhaustion coupled with all of the feels associated with watching your baby feel sick....and then add in the feels about going back to work and leaving her behind. Lots and lots of tears. I basically felt like I was on the post partum rollercoaster all over again!

Ironically enough, it was a year ago today that we had this one tiny perfect embryo transferred....who now is our cuddly, adorable little girl (even when she has a cold). It's crazy how different things are a year later! 

Anyway, send some love this way today...and perhaps a gallon of tissues, because this mama is gonna need them! You can find me staring at this beautiful face and getting 0 work done today...

Hoping you had a nice, cold-free weekend!

{WHW}: I'm back from the dead

Hey friends--do you remember me? I used to blog here semi regularly and then I dropped off the planet because I just couldn't get my act together and wanted to spend my time with my baby before going back to work. But, I'm back for a sec for what's hap-"pinning" Wednesday!
So here's a quick recap of what's been going on with me lately:

~We went to the shore for a week with MG's family like we usually do. We took family photos (still waiting on them from the photographer), had a surprise 70th birthday for my MIL, had family come from out of town for the surprise who we haven't seen since my wedding, and basically just had a nice week away on the bay

~We had our first time away from Ella when we left her at the shore with my two SIL's for 2.5 days so that MG and I could go to my best friend's wedding in VA Beach.

~The wedding was so fun and I was so glad to be there to celebrate my bestie on her day (more on this to come)
~Ella rolled over 7 times on Monday (from tummy to back) during tummy time. Baby girl is growing up!
~We also had a trip to the pediatrician because she's developed reflux in the past week, and the last 3 days especially have been much worse. Thankfully she's still gaining weight like a champ, doesn't seem too bothered by it overall, so the pediatrician isn't recommending medicine. I sure hope it goes way quickly though because it's no fun (and it's messy!)

~The last two weeks after getting back from our week/weekend away have been spent holding my baby Ella close, getting in all of the snuggles, kisses, smiles and laughs that I can because this mama is going back to work on Monday.

I've literally cried at least once a day for the last week and a half and feel the minutes slipping by this week. I know she's going to be in good hands with my good friend during the days, but I still wish it was me. I have the irrational fear that she's going to love her babysitter more than me (I know logically that this isn't true), and I feel like I'm gonna miss so much of her life. She's already starting to roll over--what else am I going to miss?

In addition to all of those feels, adding to my lack of desire to go back to work: I got an email last week that a parent is suing our school system. Can you understand why I feel this way? Ugh.

So, yeah...you can find me snuggling my Ella bear for the next 5 days straight.
What's hap-"pinning" with you?? Link up with Jessi and I to share!


{WHW}: I'm Slackin'

It's What's Hap-"pinning" Wednesday and I can tell you what's NOT happening around here....
...writing blog posts!

I feel like I'm in a bit of a new mom/summer time blogging rut. 
I'm ok with it because most of my days are filled with Ella (which is so much more fun these days since she's smiling, super alert, and learning new things every day), and I know these days are numbered before the dreaded first day of school comes (insert DUN DUN DUNNNNN sound here).

I'll try and get my act together and post tomorrow, but for now, link up with Jessi and I and share what's hap-"pinning" with you!



{WHW}: Currently...

Currently, I'm....

Reading ...
I finished Landline by Rainbow Rowell and have moved on to The One Man by Andrew Gross (my second book by him). It's centered around WW2 and definitely interesting so far even though I'm only about 20% of the way through (which is a huge accomplishment with a newborn I think! haha)
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Watching ...
Real Housewives of OC--I feel like Meghan and I are still living parallel lives (when her IVF journey aired, I was going through the same, and now on the show, her baby is 2 months old like Ella), Shannon is a little bonkers, and I'm still unsure about the new chick. 

We also just watched The Zookeeper's Wife since my mom sent me her copy from Netflix and it was really good. VERY sad, but really good--definitely recommend it.

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Eating....
If you saw my post yesterday you know the two new meals we're trying this week. The tilapia was a success (with some of my own tweaks--will post soon)! Trying the chicken tonight and will report back!

Looking forward to ... 
Getting the rest of my June paycheck at the end of the month. I still have a feeling I'm gonna get dicked over with the pay somehow, but at this point anything is better than the $800 they tried to give me for June...try making it through the summer with a regular paycheck let alone one that is SIGNIFICANTLY less than what you normally make, by like thousands.

Enjoying ...
morning baby smiles. It's the best way to start off the day!


Drinking...
water water water...with breastfeeding it's essential, but also with temps climbing into the 100's (no joke), it's even more important.


Loving....
that I finally found the time to book myself a hair appointment on Monday. And while I was away, MG got Ella down for a nap. Holla!!
don't mind my make-up-less face

Dreading....
going back to work. Tomorrow marks a month until I go back and I know it's just going to fly by. It already makes me cry thinking about it.

Wanting ... 
to figure out how to make money and stay home with my baby girl. 

Needing ...
to go get more contacts. I've been wearing mine for way longer than the 2 weeks I'm supposed to and am down to one more pair. 
I also need to find a cute navy and/or white dress for Ella for family photos at the beach in a week and a half. Oh, and a navy/white outfit for myself!

Wearing ...
You saw on Monday that I wore real people clothes at a wedding this weekend. Thanks to everyone on here and instagram for the sweet comments about my dress! (New York and Company--I think it was like $15 when I got it!)

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Grateful For...
a baby who sleeps 6-8 hours every night after her dream feed. SO so so thankful for this good sleeper!

Now it's your turn to link up with Jessi and I and share what's hap-"pinning" with you!





Tasty Tuesday: On the Menu

It's been a bit since I've posted a new recipe and that's because I've been sticking to some of my tried and true meals (aka: quick and easy) since having Ella.

I thought it was time to try a few new recipes so I scoured Pinterest (my go-to) and decided on these two to make this week!

Baked Tilapia with Garlic Breadcrumbs
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Creamy Portobella Chicken in the Crock Pot
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I mean, I can handle anything that involves 3 ingredients and throwing it all into one pot and letting it cook all day!

Also on the menu this week is my one pot mexican quinoa and the Sun-dried tomato asparagus pesto pasta (now with the addition of chicken!) Two perfectly light and delicious meals for the hot summer months.

Do you have any go-to Summer recipes that are quick and easy? If so, share!!
I'll let you know how these two recipes turn out!

Wedding Weekend Fun

Could it be that I'm actually posting on a Monday??? I'm not entirely sure how that happened because man, I'm exhausted coming off of our 3rd road trip away with baby! 

MG and I had a wedding on Saturday for one of his friends from HS so we made our way up to PA on Thursday evening during Ella's normal bedtime, and our lady love slept the entire 3 hours!! All the praise hands!

We got there around 10 and promptly put Ella and ourselves to bed. In the morning there was lots of time for snuggles and attention :)
Friday morning we drove over to our friend Kev/Michelle's parents' house (our Minnesota friends) so that we could see them, their 3 kiddos and let them all meet Ella. It was awesome to spend time with them, but about an hour later those 2 were off to celebrate their 10 year anniversary sans kids and we stuck around with their kids playing for a bit.

MG and I eventually made our way to a restaurant nearby to meet up with two other of his best friends--the ones from Charleston with their cute 13 month old, and MG's best friend from NY whose wife is pregnant (we found out the gender at lunch!).
It was great having all of us together, with the kids. The service was super slow, but that just allowed us more time to hang out (and for me to nurse in public--covered--for the second time ever).

That night we headed to my SIL's house so they could see Ella. We ordered dinner in and just hung out for the night--I love the laid back nights where you don't have to DO anything other than spend time together.

Saturday morning was pretty low key and then my other SIL came over with my two nieces, one of whom is 13 and incredible with doing hair and makeup, so she curled my hair for the wedding and did my eye makeup.

Around 3:45 MG and I left to go meet up with our friends before the wedding festivities for a drink. We drove around blasting music and dancing around in the car because....no baby! 
After grabbing a drink we made our way to the wedding/reception at a country club. The views were gorgeous and once the sun set, it was super nice outside. Prime photo taking opportunities ensued.

the pink and green alternating ties was not planned 
The night was full of laughter and fun--I seriously love this group of MG's friends who have become my friends, and really, our family.

I had another "mom" experience when I had to go and find a place to pump during the reception. And I realized that my dress didn't unzip so guess who got to sit with my friend Michelle, with my dress around my shoulders? #thisgirl lol (The things we do to keep our babies alive, amIright?)

After dinner, dancing, photoboothing, and a Dirty Dancing reenactment by my husband and Michelle's husband (no seriously), the night was over all too quickly and we were heading back home to our sleeping baby who was well cared for by my MIL and two SILs while we were gone. Our first time away for more than 2 hours was a complete and total success!
We got home and in bed around midnight and Ella continued to sleep until 6:45...praise Jesus for our good sleeper. We were still exhausted but much less so than we would have been otherwise.

We had breakfast, packed up and hit the road at 10 and our awesome girl slept until the last 20 minutes, during which she was pretty easily calmed. 
We unpacked and lounged around the house, and then visited an open house in our neighborhood to see what updates they'd done, ran some errands and then grabbed Chipotle for dinner because neither of us was in the mood to cook.

So here we are! Another awesome weekend that just makes us wish that these friends all lived closer instead of spread throughout the country. I'm so grateful for these friends that I inherited from my husband because they are seriously some of the best.

The only drawback to this weekend was the fact that I missed my best friend's bachelorette party, but I was there in spirit and am definitely excited for when I get to see her and tackle her in 2 weeks! #loveyougenna (how is it almost august already???)

Hoping your weekend was friend-filled and fantastic, too!