Thursday, March 19, 2015

Real Life Happens

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I feel like I've had a little black rain cloud hovering over me for a little while now. Not like I'm depressed, but just things keep happening that make it stressful, annoying, overwhelming, or some other adjective. (You know the phrase "When it rains, it pours"). It feels like I'm under that little shadow, and it just keeps expanding to another aspect of my life, whether it's work, at home, or even in the blog world.

Last week I got totally dumped on at my second school because the administrator wouldn't stand up to a parent who was CLEARLY in the wrong in regard to a situation with my colleague, and basically now I'm the next one in line to be railroaded by this family. Not to mention it's added several hours of extra work to my caseload every week when I'm already feeling stretched pretty thin as it is between my two schools.

MG came down with an illness last week that I spoke about on Monday (I won't go into details, but it has not been fun for him). It's been super hard seeing my husband in pain and not being able to DO anything to fix it.

My dad's back in the hospital again because of excess fluid in his body/congestive heart failure. The doctors have been back and forth on when the next procedure he's going to get will happen (hopefully this afternoon), while trying to stabilize everything else that's going on. I can't be there all the time that I want to be. 
Sometimes I feel like a bad daughter because of that.

And it just gets worse when I come to the blog world to escape it all and even here, sometimes I see stuff that makes me want to quit blogging because there are people (or one particular person in my case) who like to try to stir up drama by leaving petty comments on other people's blogs that have nothing to do with them. They want to try to make a point that they're somehow "better" than other people. I'm not sure why this is a valuable use of other people's time, and it's sickening behavior in general, but when I'm dealing with all of this other stuff, it's pretty much the last thing that I want to read.

Sometimes the unfairnesses of life get me down.
 It's unfair that parents at a school can be rude (and beyond) to teachers who work their butts off to try to help and do the best for a kid. 
It's unfair that some administrators don't have the guts to stick up to parents.
It's unfair that bad things happen to people you care about. 
It's unfair that some people are mean because they have nothing better to do with their time.

 I know it will all likely get better, it's just hard when it feels like everything's happening all at the same time.

That's real life. It happens. And sometimes you just need to get it out in order to take the next step, into the sunshine, towards feeling better.

23 comments:

  1. :( I'm so sorry Jenn. Life can be really crummy sometimes, I agree. I'm praying that things start looking up for you!!!

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  2. Awwwwww honey!!!!! You are too sweet to be having all this happen to you! It really is true when it rains it pours. I'm thinking about you and your family! Sending you so much love!

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  3. I love you so much, and I hope your dad gets his procedure soon and that it helps! Also, I TOTALLY get the parents not being appreciative and the administrators not being supportive or having the guts to stand up to parents because they're scared. Hang in there, lady! I also hope MG gets better soon. I'm praying for you!!

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  4. Sorry you're feeling so blah lately... I'm with ya, when it rains it pours...BUT after every good storm is a beautiful rainbow right...all this "bad" is leading to good... And don't let other peoples meaningless drama affect you - negative people who hide behind screens are lacking positive in their lives and feel better by hurting others... sometimes its jealousy... Either way, try to find the silver lining
    Been following you're blog for a few weeks & love it, I think I found you through a wedding blog.....
    I'll say a prayer for your dad.... :)
    ~Tiffany

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  5. Aw! When it rains it does pour.. why does it always happen that way?! It’s hard but just try your hardest to look at the positive in your life! If everyone could be a little nicer the world would be a better place, there’s no need for mean people. It’s tough to watch the ones you love in pain – hoping MG is feeling better very soon and you’re your dad’s procedure goes well. Continuing prayers for your dad and family today :)

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  6. As you know, I am well-aware of the whole "when it rains, it pours" thing lately - so I feel your pain, just in different ways, of course:( I'm so sorry to hear that your dad is still not doing great. And that MG is sick. Hoping that they both get to feeling good soon. And BOO on that situation at your second school. Sometimes, as a teacher/person who works with children, dealing with parents is the absolute worst part. Which is sad in itself. And when you don't have an administration that will stick up for its teachers, well, that just spells trouble. I am so sorry that you are having to deal with all of this at once, Jenn. Don't let the negativity of others - via any medium (at school, in blogland, etc) - rub off on you too much. Just keep doing your thing, keep your head up, and know that you have friends who are here for you, thinking about you, and praying for you! Love you!

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  7. Oh friend. Just know you are loved so much and I am praying and thinking of you. As cheesy as it sounds, the sun will come out eventually and you have so much to look forward to in the next couple of weeks. xoxo

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  8. sometimes it just helps to vent, especially if you like writing. get it all of your chest and just breathe!! hope things get better soon!

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  9. Ah it makes me so mad for you that your school administrator is not standing up for the teachers...especially when the parent is wrong!!! I seriously know that this little "bad stretch" will pass and you are going to come out on the other side so much better! Love you girl! xo, Biana - BlovedBoston

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  10. Girl, you are FAR from a bad daughter. As much as you want to be, you just can't be there all the time. But the fact that you want to be there, that's what makes you a good daughter. There are plenty of people who would be there but not because they want to be. Hope things turn around for you soon girl. I know how you feel since I went through a similar rough patch the end of last year but just remember, the rain can only last so long.

    <3, Pamela
    Sequins & Sea Breezes

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  11. I'm sorry you're having such a hard time :( life is such a difficult balancing act sometimes - that does NOT make you a bad person! Keep your head up…it'll get better soon, I'm certain.

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  12. I know it feels better that you got it all out! We all have periods of time where we feel this way. Its like bad things just seem to snowball all together to make everything a little bit worse. I'm so sorry to hear about your Dad. I've been through those feelings too of feeling like you can't give enough, but your Dad is proud of you for being a responsible adult and knows you have obligations of your own! You are doing your best. Here's to sunshine shining over you for the rest of the week and things looking on the bright side!! xoxo

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  13. I hope your joy and cheerfulness return soon, my friend! At least today is Friday Eve, right?

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  14. Thank you for sharing this and keeping it real. Not everything is beautiful and fun all the time. I feel like the past few weeks I also had my own little dark cloud hovering. Just remember that this too shall pass. Hang in there! xo

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  15. Virtual hug to you! I always think it's helpful to either talk or write about things that upset you. Get it out in the open, don't keep it bottled up. I hope lots and lots of sunshine is around the corner for you and your family.

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  16. You poor thing - you definitely had a lot to get off your chest! Hang in there - I'm sure things will only get better from here. Sending you a hug through the blogosphere!

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  17. Hang in there, Jenn! Things will soon get better. Sending a virtual hug!

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  18. Awww, things WILL get better... these are the ups and downs of life unfortunately... hang in there. Sending lots of happy juice your way! :)

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  19. It sure does seem like when it rains it pours. Sorry to hear you're a little down. And the blog comment thing is ridiculous. How annoying!

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  20. Hang in there, we all have these rough patches and it always passes!

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  21. I hate that when it rains, it pours! But great news about your dad today. You're in my thoughts! Lots of love to you! xoxo

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  22. I'm so sorry Jenn! Feeling like you have a rain cloud following you is the worst feeling...I'm hoping you get a ray of sunshine peeking through soon. Keeping you and your family in my thoughts!

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  23. Oh my sweet friend, I am so sorry!! It has been pouring in your life and it's just not fair! I suppose these are things that make us stronger in the end, but it still sucks going through them!
    I hope your husband gets feeling 100% again asap. I'm still praying for your dad! And I don't know what to tell you about the school issue :( It seems like there has been so much corruption in the school districts since the economy tanked- money is more important than sticking up for their teachers and schools. They can't piss off the wrong parents... or else! I know that doesn't really pertain to what you're experiencing but I still think the administratives have lost sight of what's really important :(
    Praying for you!! Sending hugs your way!

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