I can't believe that your birthday weekend is already here (Saturday), reminding me of your birthday from last year. You'd come down with a pretty bad cold and were suffering through it. I didn't know then that it would be the last birthday that we had with you. I remember when I got to see you and give you your card, it was when you were in the hospital. I never thought at that point that you wouldn't be coming back home.
As I look back, I can't believe it's already been almost a year since everything happened. Mom and I have made it through, although with admitted struggles and breakdowns along the way. We miss you.
If you were here, I'd give you all the hugs I haven't been able to give you over the past 10 months. I know you'd light up when you saw me and my ever-growing bump, especially since you knew how hard a time we were having trying to get pregnant, and even during your hard days in the hospital, always asked how it was going. I'd relish you being able to feel this strong little girl kicking away, saying hi to her grandpa.
This year has been bittersweet with getting the news that we're pregnant, and not having you to share it with how I want to. I know in my heart that our little girl has met you already, before she made her way down here to be with us, and I know that you've been watching over us, making sure we're both okay, and that makes me feel so comforted. This little girl will definitely grow up knowing and hearing about her grandfather.
January 28th will always be the day that I celebrate the amazing man I had in my life, who loved me without limits, who taught me so much, encouraged me throughout life, and who I was lucky enough to call my dad.
We'll be seeing you on Sunday. It won't be the way that we want, and it won't be the same not being able to give you hugs and kisses like we normally did, but just know that we love you and miss you so so much.
Love Always (your favorite daughter :),
Jennifer
Beautiful letter Jenn - what you said about your little baby girl having already met your dad, I truly believe that to be true. Thinking of you
ReplyDeleteXoxo. Thinking of you today. I'm sorry it's such a bittersweet day.
ReplyDeleteSo sweet! Praying for you today!
ReplyDeleteSarah at MeetTheShaneyfelts
I'll be praying for you and your mom today. *hugs and much love attached here*
ReplyDeleteHe and Walker share a birthday. :) Prayers for you this weekend!
ReplyDeleteI had no idea about your Dad - I'm so, so sorry. This was such a sweet letter. Hugs to you!
ReplyDeleteSweet letter, many hugs and prayers :)
ReplyDeleteSo sweet! Many prayers to you all this weekend. He is definitely keeping an eye on your sweet little angel until she's here with you and then will watch over you all always!
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday to your dad, sending you lots and lots of *hugs* today sweet friend <3
ReplyDeleteGreen Fashionista
Beautifully written - happy birthdays sent up to heaven for your wonderful dad!
ReplyDeleteThinking of you today friend!! Hope it's a GREAT day in honor of your dad!
ReplyDeleteOh Jenn. Happy birthday to your dad. And you are so right about him having already met baby girl. He was up there taking care of her until the time was just right to send her to you. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteJenn, I'm in tears. I can't imagine how difficult this time of year must be for you but girl, I'm praying for you! You are so strong, and you're so right - he's absolutely looking down on you!! How cool is that?!
ReplyDeleteSending lots of love your way!
ReplyDeleteSuch a sweet letter to your Dad. Happy birthday to him in heaven and I'm sure he's so super proud of you and will protect you through your pregnancy! Such a cute baby you were.
ReplyDeleteI love you. What a beautiful letter! You're making me tear up. I know he's been hanging out with that sweet haby of your's and watching over you all. Hugs to you😘
ReplyDeleteaw! sweetness.
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday Mr. ZZZZZZ :)
Happy Birthday to your dad, I am sure it was a hard weekend. I am sure he is looking down and feeling so proud of you and for the family that you are creating.
ReplyDeleteXoxo,
Whitney & Blaire
Peaches In A Pod
Oh Jenn, this is beautiful. <3
ReplyDeleteSo beautiful! While it's definitely not the same as having him physically present, I know in my heart of hearts that your dad is looking down on you guys and watching over you. XOXO, R
ReplyDeleteThis is absolutely beautiful Jenn. I know your dad is so proud of you and I bet he knows all about that sweet girl you have growing inside you. It isn't the same as getting to see him but just know he still sees you. <3
ReplyDeleteThinking about you and your entire family xo Love you!
ReplyDeleteSuch a beautiful tribute to your father. Very beautiful! So glad you got to visit him this weekend!
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